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hot/cold…

yup that’s how it runs.

5 months in…

we had another anniversary last night and it was also our first social engagement as a real couple where i didn’t feel uncomfortable.

today is also about the 5 because it would have been sonia5’s 55th birthday.

she is still so deeply missed.

fucking god damn fucking friendster…got tons of new photos to share from the bondage video shoot i did the other night and this sites just fucking about. ugh.  so if yo’ve come here looking for photos of me in a corset, you’ll just have to wait - sorry! xxx

new sophisticated chocolate brown hair colour…

what do you all think?

my daughter is bak out on a big big burlesque tour allover the world from march i think…so all my friends out there in russia, japan, australia and of course north america - please ping me your latest contact details if you wanna catch her show!

(altho isn’t anyone who is anyone living in oz these days?)

xmas time…mixed memories, and making new ones this year. first time in about 4 years i’ve been here in london for the holidays and i’m not regretting it at all as i’ve got my baby navy to keep me company. anyone else around and about in london this winter>?

i am thankful for my baby navy and my family…

so what the fuk are the rest of you americans thankful for?

he says its been 2 months…

i’ve always been so crap at keeping track of stuff like this.

back from brighton weekend and its almost another one!

friday was a strange day.

forgot to wear a watch and couldn’t look at my memorial 5 tattoo all day so got a band-aid from cutesy boy tony on reception…then i went into my hotmail and there was a message from friendster reminding me that my friend sonia peterson had invited me into her friends circle.  must have been from that spread the dread weekend in london when we were messing around on friendster and had signed up all our pets and stuff as well. it quite upset me - but i was at work so had to hold it in…

i miss her so much.  i’ve noticed its not as bad as when she first passed.  now i can get through a week without a a good cry, but i still miss her alot. wish she was here for this happy time in my life - she was so worried about me before she died…i really do believe though that her energy is out there and she can feel that there is happiness and hope in my life again.

same same for annmarie who tracked me down and added me to her friendster list today. all the late late nights she sat with me in the stockholm flat, the salon, or even at technoir - talking and cuddling until i could break through ‘the wall’ i seemed to hit so often before i had my navy boy…i miss her and stockholm so much and can’t wait for her visit to london soon!